This is a bit of an embarrassing story, BUT, it’s a decent example for how I use shamanic journeying to move through challenging situations that life inevitably brings from time to time, SO.. here goes..
I recently got scammed by a mechanic :( Long story short, they definitely didn’t do at least half of the work they said they did, AND, they returned my car with a cracked wheel bearing.
This mistake has cost me something between $1,500 & $2,000. This does not include what I’ve spent to *actually* have the work done that I originally took it to them for in the first place. *long sigh*
ANYWAYS- I’m sharing the backstory not because I’m looking for sympathy or advice, but because I’ve felt stuck with the question of “How do I proceed?” for weeks.
It’s been consuming WAY too much energy, brain space and time. I’ve been hitting a wall in trying to get it resolved, and I know I just need to get out of my head, and into a higher level of consciousness so that I can move forward in the best way.
So I did what I do in these times- I brought the question to my spirit guides, and went on a shamanic journey to ask “What should I do about this situation?”
The journey was interesting, and it felt relevant to conversations I’ve had recently with others. The journey did not bring an answer, but I did receive guidance that, honestly, would have annoyed the heck out of me in the past, because it felt a bit rabbit-hole-y, as shamanic journeys sometimes do.
But I have been journeying for several years, and I know that this is one way that Spirit can guide, so I trust that if I can let go of needing to know the answer right now, and I can simply follow the guidance, the best way forward will become clear in the right time.
So I thought I’d share a bit of that backstory, as well as what came through in the journey to provide an example of how journeywork work can be at times.
If you want to hear how this unfolds after I do the integration work, let me know and I’ll share a follow up.
THE JOURNEY
I saw myself floating in the ocean, on my back. My body began to disintegrate into fish food. Fish began to feed.
Out of nowhere, a shark entered the scene and devoured me in the blink of an eye. While my energy dissolved into the Water, it felt peaceful. It felt like I was returning Home.
I looked skyward, and my energy moved up to join the sacred fabric that is everything- the fabric that gently waves in the wind, and has no beginning and no end.
The scene below changed, and I found myself floating above a beautiful, hilly, luscious green landscape. It felt happy, peaceful, and familiar.
I saw the great Serpent that I’ve seen and felt before- she lives underneath the Earth’s surface, and she is pure love and consciousness. She communicates through sound and feeling. My energy flowed into hers, and she took me down a path that eventually led to a fork.
The path to the right was gloomy. People kept to themselves or bickered with each other. There was a feeling of needing to watch your back. A decrepit stone wall loosely contained the energy of this place. It didn’t necessarily feel unsafe, but it was certainly devoid of vibrancy. The overall sense of this place was “We are simply trying to survive.”
The path to the left led to a wondrous place of abundance, creation, and beauty. Its energy was held by a tall stone wall, so my view of was limited, but I saw the tops of several colorful, crystalline buildings. I heard laughter, flutes and music. I felt the energy of dance and merriment pour out in all directions.
The people inside this place were creating an abundance of beautiful energy that wafted outwards, and it looked like golden music notes. The golden notes held intelligence and love, and they were gifting the land and people, including myself, with the encouragement, hope, and insight that we needed to join the people inside this beautiful place.
As I looked for a door to enter, my attention was directed to my heart, where I saw a golden keyhole. A golden key appeared, and floated just outside my body. I could not grasp it, but it entered my root chakra, where it told me I needed to release what I’ve carried regarding the energy of “take”.
Black and white images flashed into my awareness like a movie on fast forward. I saw brief glimpses of times in which my resources and energy had been taken from me, and times in which I, as well as multiple generations in my lineage, had taken resources and energy.
I also saw scenes from the TV show Shameless (I’m LOLing at the fact that Shameless made its way into my journey!) This seemed to represent times in which “taking” felt necessary for survival, for myself and my lineage, because we lacked awareness of a different way.
Looking back at the beautiful place now, I’m searching for a door; there isn’t one. I’m reminded to release the energy of “take”, and I receive clear direction for how to do that on the land in my 3D reality.
I receive imagery for what will happen once I follow the directions for that releasing ceremony. I see the golden key will regain its sense of direction, finding its way to the lock in my heart, where it will open ME up (not the lock), so that I can pass through the wall and into that place of beauty, joy, dancing, connection, music, and abundance.
The opening of me was an interesting image- my physical body turned inside out, dissolved, became pure energy, and I just walked through the wall.
And that was the journey!
So, yeah, quite a metaphorical experience. I didn’t get a straight answer to my question, but after nearly a decade and a half of journeying, I know that the answer or resolution will come once I complete what was asked of me in the journey. I’m simply not meant to receive the answer right now, and I’m okay with that.
What I do hope for in the short term scheme of things is that I am able to reclaim the energy, time, and brain space that this situation has been taking from me these past few weeks, and I do believe that will happen, as now I have a whole new piece of my puzzle- this journey- to ponder and work with.